An unlikely attempt at at year-end reflection

Ha, I know it is doomed before I even began. I read one of my friend's blog, and her year end reflection was sincere, inspirational and I thought to myself. Yar..that is a very good thing to do to sum up the past year and give thanks. But hey, that's what wrong with me. I can't get into the mood to be reflexive. Everytime, I feel inspired to look deeper at my own existence, it never happens. I sound like a bloody simpleton (as I usually am). Which explains why exam is a pain for me, I can't write when I have to. It has to come suddenly. Thoughts always comes in spurts and sputters. One a very random day, by accidental ways, or simply craziness, I will start getting all thoughtful and really sentimental. But it is never the right time. but perhaps there never is a right time, just moments, purely accidental moments which trigger thoughtful mental stimulations. It's like stumbling upon treasures on our ways in total unexpected fashions. Days, when you feel so grateful for everything. Including that very instance you get such feelings. You walk along totally unaware of how something small and insignificant may make you feel just glad to be alive, or feel that living can be quite a pain.

Anyhow, I am thankful for those moments, however rare they are. They are precious. I really can't do a very decent review on the year. The days which I have passed have become smudged and hazy. A bit washed out. I don't remember events very well(that makes me perhaps a very crappy history student). But still,the past year has become remnants of feelings and experiences stuck in some abandoned corner of my mind (or quite simply evaporated). I am thankful. I wish the whole year can be compressed into a meaningful post (with all the colours, feelings and sensations), or at least inspire one. But, sigh, I have explained myself. At the risk of sounding like a simpleton, I still want to be thankful for the past year, and for simply being alive. Ha! And yes, I am definitely hungry for more.