the psycho speaks

I Can't wait for Graduation. But I don't really want to go.
I'm quite exicted to leave studying. But I do dread starting work.
I imagine sitting for my last exam. But the nightmare of mundane work with no excitement. (exam do give me some kicks-in strange ways)
I'm bloody sick of NUS. But I know I will miss it. (only after.)
I want to go out there boldly. But still must face insecurities first.
Complain that I didnt make close friends in U. BUt suspect I may make even less out there.
Finally out of education system. Only to go into another system (with rules & stuff).
Seems like I've been waiting for this forever. And what I've been dreading forever.
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Foot/Side note: Why is there is horrible anxiety about the whole DA VINCI Code thing!!! It is so sickening! Why do so many feel the need to over state that it is a fiction. I'm quite aware that it is just a fiction and only a hypothesis. I think it only shows quite a lot of insecurities about this whole thing. Calm down man, it is almost a paranoia. I think it is just giving the whole thing even more exposure. And to think I got this free magazine that actually called in experts to talk about it. Really, there is so much anxiety and insecurity. I think it may be a tad too overblown. I think most pple can still distinct btw fact and fiction. But the response of alot of institution are actually calling pple's ability to do so into question. Strange. I feel that it is counter-effective. It made me wonder even more abt the credibility of official narrative of church instead of reassuring me. Honestly, I don't want to hear anymore abt the issue. But I guess it will still be hot topic for couple more months. GROAN*/Yawn*