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Swing-- a) Moods
b) The swing I always go to when i feel down--somewhere between East Coast and Kembagan MRT station.
c) Jazz. which I can't stand
d)How I feel right now--ungrounded and unstable--even when I'm not moving I'm still hovering some distance above the ground wondering at which moment-- will I fall or will I be left hanging?
Full--a) my physical state, my stomach is bursting.
b) The total opposite of my mental state--Feeling a bit confused and lost, My thoughts just don't seem to come naturally.
c) A mental feeling of coming close to the threshold beyond which I will explode--sadly not creatively, but all the nitty gritty concerns which fills up my brain and consume all my energy that I have little time for the spiritual, and intellectual.
d) Of feelings. I can usually handle with mental effort when it is balanced with reason. Recently that equilibrium disappeared.
Extreme--a) The extent of my homesickness
b) Things I see in news and that photo of the man squatting, crying over the dead body of his brother in Iraq. Unforgettable.
c) THe change in weather
d) and hence the stress my body is undergoing to adjust.
e) Extreme Makeover home edition where they rennovate home for poor American Familes with a sad story to tell--a tear jerker, sometimes a source of inspiration, sometimes a source of irritation.
Christmas--a)A simulant or catalyst for homesickness.
b) A season where peolpe shop like mad here, but I am in a cashless and strange new situation.
c) A time when my sec school and JC friends will meet up and something I always lok froward to, celebrating with them.
d) But not this year.
e) When I think about what it means to me if I still question the reason for the season. A virgin, a birth, a miracle (a myth?)
f) a synonym for : I wish I was a child.[optional: forever]
There
Dear moo,
alright..., I hope u have got off your chest, ya.. things are little strange right now, feeling the differences and all. ya..
hmm... may not be in the best position to say, I know it all, it sucks ya. I get it... louD..
its okie, our knack at drowning the circumstance, flooding the dampened world, (I hope) will give u a lift above it all.
perhaps after that, u may see a ray of colours.. erm. perhaps, why not... get use to the place first, walk around more, get use to the culture first, talk to more people (relatives, so that u can save on spending money when u go out with new friends). Treat it like a tour first. Er..perhaps optimism will work, the bridge will straighten itself!!
sometimes. when one push too hard to fit in, all the more stresses fall heavy. Let things be natural, so at the same time u will be
prepare emotionallly too.
on the lighter side, I admire you. U are venturing on your own, independent, surviving with your sister not only physically, but very mentally and emotionally. U Go ger!!
so Jia You, jia You!! Hear me cheer k??
and NAH!!! U are not alone!!
We are HEre!!! yes.. k?? Jia you.. Jia You!!
let the cool weather calm u down, enjoy the birds chattering, the greener scenary and the slower life!! ... is it beautiful? (I am really asking... )
I hope this line from the bible wil comfort u!!
Psalm 23
"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want, he makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name sake. Even though I walk throug hteh valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil, for you are with me."