REcently, I have a lot of rage
realized I am sometimes an extreme angry person
with no place for these anger to get dissipated
no proper outlet
Wondered if I have an inadequacy when it comes to loving
why, I wondered,
did my mum name me thus
am a buncle of contradiction
their conflicts sometimes threatening to
tear my one-ness apart
What a torture to live with..
I am extreme happy and positive
and then there is that twin side
when I become crazily depressived and pessimistic
sometimes I wonder where my energy come from
at others I try to find that blackhole which sucks
and vibrate bad vibes
I feel peace and at ease with the world
I also feel existing is sometimes an agony
so exhiliarating and so tiring
burning and turning to cold ashes
the pendulum swings this way and that
I'm tired. tired
of blinding flash and then plummeting darkness
why can't I be stationarily grey and stable for once?
BE Bloody normal!!!!
I don't want to be multiples--
like my sis be a whole person