If

If I don't get accepted,

maybe I should work on a cruise
or
settle in a new place, say, Oregon
There's the possibility of living with L, but don't know if that's a bad idea
should I consider going to school in HK?
There's that visit to UK, I'm planning
maybe
find something new, or someone interesting
Perhaps I can look for something lost in a historical place
do nothing
but write all day
that would be a luxury I can't afford
finally quit my job
and
feel the urgency of my savings trickling away
or wait
like I've always done for so many years
keep waiting for the opportune moment to do something crazy
while my courage and my youth ebbs away.